Fuck it...I don't give a damn anymore....

I'm so sick and tired of this. I'm telling you the truth and yet you say that i'm fucking lying. Why don't you ever trust what i say?Are my word really that unbelieveble?Seriously this time i don't give a damn anymore....

p.s. : this post is only to who it may concern.

I'm BORED!!!

yeah..I'm bored...and that's all i could say for now....my mind keeps on wondering around thinking on what i should archive while i cant face the truth which I'm facing in. Who should i really ask help from? Sometimes i do wonder, should i go back the path which he had created for me with blessings flowing around or continue to sway along with the truth which is I'm NOTHING...and that's the word to describe everything in my mind now...NOTHING...sometimes i do feel like being shot by a gun at my head in a point blank range so i could end everything. But what about my own desire?i don't wish to lose now. Or can i say, i don't wish to lose anymore. Don't mind on what i post since its just some symptoms of boredness which I'm facing now...=P

Hell yeah, Jia....Hell yeah.....

Things comes and goes when we don't notice. As time passes me by, I'm feeling that I am no longer who I used to be....or perhaps I'm nobody in the beginning. Things starts to drift apart of me and i was like wondering whose fault it would be. Why things never ever happens in a way which i desire? It's a question i keep on asking myself for a long time. People will never appreciate what they have in front of them and always try to get what they cant get. Sometimes i don't really understand myself and yet i wanted others to understand bout me...and it was like What The Hell....I heard many different things around me...while i didn't notice this things were right beside me. At times i do wonder should i remain an optimise and stay cool. While this is making those dearest to me furious.Week 2 is almost gone for college, and I'm one step nearer to my graduation though its just a diploma. Results wasn't as good as i wanted but at least i do meet the target of graduating on time though....but its still up to what i do in this current sem. there's this thing i my mind that i really wanted but i don't really know that i should presude it or not....Its a matter for me to think for the coming few days to keep my mind occupied. And now, all I could say to myself is:"Hell yeah, Jia.....Hell yeah....."